I gave birth April 2004 to a beautiful baby girl
and named her Danielle Caroline. But
unfortunately, heaven did not allow us to have
her. Yes, she died an hour and a half after I
gave birth to her in a local hospital. I didn't
even get the chance to see her alive.
As a mother, it was too painful for me to accept
the fact that I bore her In my womb for 9 long
months and longing to hold her and now my first
child is dead because of fetal distress.
Now, on with the story.
On the day that I will
give birth my brother dreamt of a little girl
with curly hair and wearing a white dress holding
my grandfather's hand walking away. My brother
told my mom about it and right and there my mom
and my brother knew that I will have a daughter
but she will die. They didn't tell me the story
not until it was 5 months after I gave birth to
her. Now, I stayed in the hospital for 5 days
due to complications of my giving birth.
Danielle was buried the next day after I gave
birth to her. It was my third night in the
hospital and my husband was lying in the couch in
a deep sleep. I woke up around 2 in the morning
thinking of my daughter then suddenly the door
opened. I looked towards it then entered a
little girl. She is wearing a white dress made
of lace. She has a curly white hair tied in
piggy tails and she was smiling while walking
towards the side of my bed. I was lying in my
bed. When she reached my side of bed, she stroke
my hair and said "Mommy,I'll be ok. Thank you
for everything. Tell daddy thank you also for
not leaving me in the NICU alone. I love you
both. I'll watch over you and daddy and my
siblings. I love you." My husband saw my
daughter die in the NICU. After this she looked
at my husband then stoked his hair as well. I
wanted to tell her not to leave because I really
want to hug her since I didn't have the chance to
cuddle her. She walked towards the door and
there standing was my grandfather smiling. When
he held Danielle in his hands he looked at me and
said, "She will be alright". Then they left the
door like a normal human being.
I cried and
called for my grandfather and danielle begging them
not to leave me alone and take me as well. My
husband woke up because I was shouting
hysterically. My husband called the nurse and
they gave me a shot to calm me down and put me to
sleep. Needless to say, I drowsed to sleep then
woke up the next morning. I opened my eyes and
stared at the ceiling. I started to recall what
happened the night before and tears started
rolling down my cheeks. I still could not accept
the fact that my daughter was gone but I felt a
peace of mind knowing that she is ok with my
grandfather in heaven. My husband asked me if I
stood up last night and stroked his hair. I said
no and I won't be able to do that since the
doctor said that I can't get out of bed yet (I
had a C-Section so you know how painful it is
to force yourself to do something). I told him
it's our daughter wanting to thank him. My
husband did not buy the story thinking I am still
high with the drug the nurses gave me. I didn't
insist that thought to him.
I got out of the
hospital and I was in our bedroom after a few
weeks. My husband is in his work. I still miss
my daughter and I cried myself to sleep. I woke
up and saw my daughter and grandfather walking
out of the door. I shrugged it off and went back
to sleep. But when my husband arrived he woke me
up and asked me why did I leave the door open. I
recalled what I saw a while ago and I burst into
tears again. My husband calmed me down. I told
him what happened and this time he believed me.
According to him, the night before around 1 in
the morning, he saw a man standing at the foot of
our bed, and he saw a little girl standing beside
me who kissed me. He reached for the lamp shade
then the images are gone.
After a few weeks, I
went back to work and tried to move on but never
forget Danielle.
A year has passed and I was
having a cup of coffee one afternoon. Out of
nothing, I looked on the top of our stove and I
saw a little girl sitting on top of it swinging
her legs in a childish way. I didn't burst into
tears anymore because I was able to accept the
fact that that is my daughter and just saying
hello to me. I smiled and said "Hi baby
Danielle. Mommy misses you so much." Then the
figure was gone. Also according to my
grandmother there are times that she will hear
something from the second floor like a child
playing.
A few years have passed and I gave birth
to my second child, Tyron. It was the month of
November 2006 around 11:30 in the evening. I was
washing Tyron's clothes when I saw in front of me
an image of a little girl sitting and looking at
what I am doing, I know that that girl is my
daughter, so I just said "Mommy will go to sleep
later." The figure of the child disappeared.
Also there are some instances that my son Tyron
will laugh hard like someone is playing peak-a-boo
to him. That didn't scare me because I know that
my baby Danielle is watching over us.
Thanks for reading my story.
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