This is a story throughout my life. The things
that I am describing are just strange, not really
scary. I have seen many things before they
happen, mostly when I was younger. I dreamed of
airplane crashes, and the next evening I saw the
footage I had dreamed about on the news. I
really freaked my parents out for a while. My dad
now accepts that when I tell him to check on a
relative, he should really take heed of what I
say.
When I was a kid, I was really close to my
maternal Grandfather, Eric. This is important to
know how close. My brother and I were the only
grandchildren that really visited him. He had
five kids, and each of them had two to three kids-
do the math and he had 15 grand kids, but only
two really visited outside of Christmas.
I
was a “weird” girl for that time. I loved my
Grandmother’s huge doll collection, and I loved
sighting in the rifles, hearing deer hunting
stories from my dad and grandpa, and going
fishing with the guys too.
My Grandpa and my
brother talked about my brother’s hockey games
and other things in life. We lived two hours
away from him, but regularly went to see him or
we had him stay at our house.
Now, in 1990 my Grandfather was 81 years old and
starting to get sick. Right before Thanksgiving
of that year, he was bedridden. He went into the
hospital at the beginning of December. He came
home for a few days around Christmas, but went
back in soon after. We all knew it was time. He
was not going to make it out of there. The
family was called to his bedside.
My family and
I visited him many times before he passed. On
January 5th we drove up to the hospital to see
him again. He looked at my brother and promised
him he would be at his hockey game that weekend.
He told me that everything would be fine. We
told him we loved him and he told us goodbye.
The next morning I went to school (I was 12, so
still in elementary school). I was in music
class – I remember this more clearly than most
things in my life. I looked at the clock in the
room; it was 10:13 AM. As I looked at the clock,
the room around me faded, and I was back in my
Grandfather’s hospital room. I was there, but
far back in the room observing. I saw nurses and
doctors rushing around, I heard a heart monitor
that is beeping really fast. Then I heard the
doctor’s voices – I could hear them clearly, they
were saying things like arrhythmia and calling
for different drugs to get his heart working
properly. Then, the heart monitor went flat line – and my grandmother, who I had not noticed
in the room before, started crying. As the room
faded, I heard the doctor’s tell her that he had
had a long life, and then the music room that I
was in became clear to me. I was still looking
at the clock. I thought to myself – “was that
real?” I wasn’t scared, I was comforted that
someone had chosen to share that with me, but I
didn’t know IF it had happened, but part of me
believed I had seen it – after other things I had
seen.
I went home from school that afternoon to find my
mom really upset – it was my Girl Scout meeting
night – I remember she tried to cancel it. I
remember the dining room was filled with girl
scouts and my mom pulling me into the kitchen.
She told me very quietly that my grandfather had
passed away this morning. I looked at her and
asked “when?” She thought this question was odd,
not the crying she would have expected from a
sensitive 12 year old. She told me it was at
about 10:15 this morning. I looked at her, then
at the floor before I said quietly “I knew”.
Nothing much was said about this, my mother was
too upset about her father passing.
We prepared
for his funeral, but my brother and I refused to
stop our events that were important to us –
Grandpa would not have wanted that to happen, we
kept telling mom and dad. My brother had a
hockey game that weekend, as I mentioned in the
part about the conversation with Grandpa earlier.
We went to the funeral a few days later. Nothing
interesting happened - besides that the only
person that didn’t make it to my grandfather's
bedside before he died was the ONLY person that
was crying at the church. Everyone else had a
sense of peace with his death. None of my other
cousins have ever come forward with a story of
Grandpa coming to them, and I have been close
with most of them over the years since.
A few months later my brother and I were talking
and I ended up telling him about being in
Grandpa’s hospital room – I did not tell my
parents till a LONG time later. He confided in
me that Grandpa had been to see him, too. He had
seen Grandpa at his hockey game (the one Grandpa
had promised to be at). He had felt Grandpa’s
presence cheering him on. We felt very strongly
that we had been in Grandpa’s presence and that
he had reassured us that he would always watch
over us. My mom was a bit disappointed that her
father had come to visit us and not her, they had
been close.
These days I figure it is a grandparent thing.
When my mother passed away a few years ago, my
niece – the only grandchild my mother had, was
not as shocked or as upset as the rest of us were
when my mother suddenly passed away. My niece
was actually calm, although deeply saddened, as
my mom and she were closer than any
grandma/grandchild I have ever known could be.
Maybe Mom visited her – but that story will be
left to her to tell. She still tells anyone that
asks her about her grandma, that her Grandma is
in Heaven, and she will see her one day (she says
it with that "matter of fact" tone that only a
young child can really do. The things that
happened after my mom passed away – will wait for
another day.
Like I said – it isn’t scary, it was very
comforting to me and my brothers. |